I have not been doing well with writing in a journal about my pregnancy so I figured what better time than now to keep track of whats been happening, so I can look back on it later?
I am currently 25 weeks! It has gone by quickly since I have been in the 2nd trimester. I would sum up the first trimester as, about 6 weeks of all day nausea (but no vomiting), feeling exhausted, and constantly thinking, "Am I really, really pregnant?" "Oh wow, I really AM pregnant!" "I hope everything is ok in there!!" I got to have an early ultrasound to figure out how far along I was, and also got to hear the heartbeat. It still hadn't really sunk in though.
This second trimester started with wondering when I would show. I thought about it alot, because I would hear constant comments from people as to whether I was, wasn't, or what they thought of how I looked/size. I am happy that now I have a definite belly. It may not be big, but most people know for sure I am pregnant. This has brought on some weirdo strangers asking questions, but it really doesn't bother me.
We found out it was a GIRL at our 19 week ultrasound on our anniversary, which was pretty cool. We had a little get together with our families to share the news which was fun. (Maybe I'll add pics later?) We picked her name, Georgia Shereé. I could not believe I was going to have a daughter! I really though it was a boy! I laughed/cried for like 30 minutes because I thought it was so funny/exciting. I don't have too many symptoms at this point. Some are embarassing (i.e. sweating and other fun things), but not too much of a hassle. I have had leg/feet cramps, but not sure if that is pregnancy related or from the heat. I wasn't sleeping very well, but recently devised a pillow arrangement that helped, and figured out solutions for Eric's snoring. My back hurts a little sometimes, but all in all I feel great. No swelling. No nausea. Good energy. I think I have jinxed myself and I'm gonna fall apart soon. Let's hope not!
I have gained about 15 pounds at this point. I seem on track I think, so hoping I can stay in the range they recommend (25 - 35 lbs). It's all for a good reason, so I'm not bothered by it.
I'm getting more and more excited for Georgia to come, especially with her moving around so much these days. I am enjoying pregnancy to this point, so hopefully if I check in gaain, I'll feel the same!
I am writing this on July 10th, 2013. I am not going to post it for a while, but I figured I should make a record of all the stuff on my mind lately. With school coming to an end (FINALLY) and wrapping up internship, I have some major life changes coming. I will soon be back home and hopefully before too long have a house. I will have a full-time job, and even some extra work teaching. I have no idea what all this will look like and that is a MAJOR difference for me. I am used to having my life planned out for me a couple years in advance (at least) because I was in school. I had restrictions. I had predictability. It is strange to think that pretty soon, I am FREE.
Along with the freedom from school, comes possibility. For me that possibility will allow me to reach for dreams that have always meant more to me than a career. Working will be a part of this dream (because I never have thought staying at home would work for my personality), but not the main event. For me, my dream has always been to have a family. A family of my own. Right now, Eric, Lou, and I compose this division of the (huge) Weiter family. When we get home, my hope is to find a place to settle (starter home?) and hopefully get pregnant. It feels weird to even have that be a possibility...am I old enough for this? haha With the experiences that many friends, family members, and colleagues have gone through trying to get pregnant, I know it might not be an easy road. Infertility and complications may be on the horizon. I am trying to remember that I don't get to plan everything. Some things in life are not up to me. But, at the same time, I can't help but be excited by the possibility that expanding our little family could happen within the next year. Maybe. We'll see what fate has in store for us. Until then...no one gets to know all the daydreaming I do about this subject :)
September 27, 2013
I figured I should add some more about what's going on with me lately. At this point, I am wondering if I could possibly be pregnant. WHAT?! Maybe just maybe. Its like every little thing I feel or "symptom" I have makes me think I could be. I guess I'll just have to wait and see...Trying to eat healthy and keep up with my yoga. Its a lot easier to make healthy choices when I remember that I could possibly be growing a person soon. I feel like I have been waiting my whole life for this time. I am a bit worried that the timing isn't "just right" because I currently live in a basement and won't have enough time in by next summer to take FMLA...but then again, I have been waiting to get to this point for a long time and kind of don't care if its "just right." It feels right enough!
January 2, 2014
So, I'm still not preg. It's kind of annoying and worries me sometimes. But I'm trying to just go with the flow. (which only happens like every 38 days irregularly...TMI but frustrating). I am trying to remember that this doesn't have to be on any certain time frame...but I kind of have baby rabies. I want to get pregnant. It can really do a number on your emotions when you normally have PMS hormones combined with "Oh yeah, you're not pregnant yet again" I'm happy with my life, so I don't want to be ungrateful. I guess, I just have to keep reminding myself that I take what life hands me and keep rollin. It will happen. One day. One way or another.
January 24, 2014
I think it's time to update this journal. I was feeling overwhelmed by trying to figure out my cycles, so I decided to make an appointment with my doctor (actually she's a midwife, but you get what I mean). I took in the info I had about how long my cycles have been and how they are irregular. She said I should get some bloodwork done. I went the next morning to give the blood to check my thyroid, glucose, insulin, and hormones...I have gotten the results back on the thyroid [normal]. So, now I am waiting on the other results. Based on my temperatures, I figured I ovulated and was waiting (like the other months) to see when the period would come. I have been feeling a little funny the past couple days. I talked to Eric about it last night and about how we just want this so bad, but don't want to get our hopes up and get disappointed again. This morning my temps were up higher and I just felt like I should take a test. Eric was about to leave for work, so I said I'll just take it before you go, but we'll know it's probably going to be negative. Well, wouldn't ya know it. I looked at it and it hadn't even been the amount of time its supposed to be...I was like, "Babe! Come look at this!" "Ummm, whats that mean?" If there's two lines its positive" "There's definitely two lines" And then we just stood there shocked. I took a couple more and got the same result. We laid in bed with Lou and soaked it in. Trying not to freak out just yet...who knows this early really. But at the same time, I am so HAPPY I can't contain my contain my self. This song is my theme for the day.
January 27, 2014
So I keep taking tests and they keep coming up positive...I am having a hard time believing this is true! I am going to give it a few more days before telling anyone else (other than Eric...and Lou). We are so excited. Its taking time to sink in, but the more it does, the more I want to shout it from the rooftops.
April 23, 2014
Well, its April and its really true. I am pregnant. So much has happened since January when I found out. I went through about 5-6 weeks of feeling queasy (car sick/ hungover) and exhausted. I would basically get home from work and go to sleep on the couch. Then I would wake up with time to eat and then go to sleep for the night in my bed. Once I got past that phase, I started feeling like "Am I really pregnant?" I had heard the heartbeat and even saw the lil bean on an ultrasound, but I didn't feel any different. I question everything. I am just now (16 weeks) starting to have a bump. One that doesn't go away. For a while I think I just had bloating. Now there is definitely something happening in my belly region. I still wonder if people can tell or not. I am excited to start feeling the baby move soon and for the belly to get bigger. I hadn't gained any weight till this past week, and I am just now starting to see a difference on the scale. In 3 weeks, we get to find out whether "Peabody" as we call it is a boy or girl. I can't wait. I feel like I want to know everything I can about this little person.
So that's the latest update. I am keeping this record mainly for myself. It is nice to look back on.
I still can't believe I don't live in St. Louis anymore. It will take a while to sink in...I miss some things, but I am also so happy to be home with family. Let's see if I can knock out the rest of my time there...
March:
Spent a lot of time workin on dissertation
5 - Aspyn and Monroe are born! So happy for my friends LB and Mo to welcome these beautiful girls.
9 - Visitors from Louisville - Gary, Patrick, Dave, Kristy. Had a fun night out at "Big Daddy's" using buckets as lanterns!
13-15 - Had to take off work for 3 days with another respiratory infection...Luckily Lou kept me company while Eric was in Louisville
28 - April 2 - Home for the weekend. Wrapped up in UofL sports MARCH MADNESS!! Then, defending my dissertation!!! Celebrated afterwards with my baby sis by lunchin at Checks. Nothing like a fried bologna to cap off a doctoral defense!
April:
5 - Closed on the sale of my house. FINALLY! I was so happy to not being paying rent and mortgage.
7 - ATL adventures with LB, Kelly, and Bailey
15 - papa Tom
Spring has sprung and Tower Grove Park is the place to BE!
When I looked forward to this year, I always thought of it as the year I would finally graduate. It has been a whirlwind. I have done so much this year, and surprised myself with a lot of it. There have been a lot of losses this year...many unexpected. It makes me think more about death. Not in a morbid way, but more of a live life all the time since you don't know when you or other people's day will come - kinda way. I really think I did this year. I loved this year. Even with the ups and downs. It wasn't always pleasant and happy, but I loved it all the same.
I traveled - 2012 was the only the 2nd time I had flown in my life...and in 2013 I took 11 flights (including connections). I flew/drove/trained to: Denver and Winter park, Colorado. Tampa Bay, Florida. Streator, Illinois. Atlanta, Georgia. London, England. Barcelona, Spain. Venice, Florence, San Baronto, and Rome, Italy. (with a flight stop through Amsterdam). Nashville, Tennessee. and little old Hermann, Missouri.
I lived in St. Louis...for most of this year!. I have been back 4 months now and it feels like I never left. I still miss alot about St. Louis. My life there was fantastic and lonely and new. All together. I am so glad that is where I spent the 1st year of my marriage.
I lived in my in-laws basement. Then, found a house.
I stressed. About dissertation, finding a job, planning my trips/moving, buying a house, taking the EPPP, and teaching a class. And I taught my first class, passed the EPPP, bought a cute house, tripped and moved (twice), got a job, and defended successfully...I should remember sometimes that I stress too much.
I started being more active and healthy. I am by no means an expert or perfect with this, but it feels really good that I am at least aware of what I'm eating/doing. I found a love for yoga in the parks of St. Louis. I am trying to work it into my Louisville life. I'm trying everyday to eat fruits (not hard) and vegetables (gotta really think to do that). I make smoothies with kale in them sometimes...last year I don't even know if I had ever thought about kale.
I worked on my marriage. Everyday. Just trying not to be such a brat and appreciating my awesome partner in life. By putting down my phone. By saying thank you. By noticing nice things and not being so quick to react to pet peeves.
I loved my damn dog. Seriously. I never thought I would love a dog like this, but I think he is awesome.
So it's been real 2013. For the pleasant times, the shitty times, and the plain boring days in between.
